I am not defined by what I am not.

Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue

Home’s face: how it ages when you’re away
Spring blooms and you find the love that’s true
But you don’t know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago

And all you see is where else you could be When you’re at home
And out on the street Are so many possibilities to not be alone

The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear
But you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn’t need
Cause you knew you were finally free

Cause all you see is where else you could be, When you’re at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
And all you see is where else you could be,
when you’re at home,
There on the street,
are so many possibilities to not be alone

Let go was the phrase of the last 6 months of 2010. Looks like it will be the phrase of 2011 as well.

Good things never die <— okay maybe that isn’t true.
the things themselves..people, places may die..
but what they stood for..what they meant? I don’t think so.

so here goes. 2011 new years resolution:

Take time when I need it.

How often.. do I know that I need a moment, even if its just a few minutes to collect my thoughts and emotions..
and instead: I press onward, let my emotions take over, and say something that I don’t mean.. something that while not outright mean..isn’t loving.

I am so over the fleeting feeling of the moment. The helplessness and uncertainty.
I could say this is the year of improvements and not screwing up.. but lets be real..and not set lofty goals

Something simple. Take time when I need it. Let go of my pride and intense emotion for 2 seconds
and save the regret for another day.

that is all.

I need you so much closer.