Posts tagged minnesota

Dreams & Oil paint

I’ll start this off with some free brushes from Colorburned.
I love a good brush.

These little vector brushes will have to replace my real ones as I have left
them in storage in Canadia.
I have a lot of stuff.
But what I have realized.. is that my stuff is all stuff .. that I DO.

Camping, biking, drawing, singing, strumming, climbing!

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So I don’t really feel that bad. Yes, the other half of it MAY(or may not) be clothing..
and that I definitely have to work on..
But I love what I do.. it brings me life and gets me up.. in the .. afternoon. :D

speaking of sleeping.

My dreams almost always have meaning.

Yes, I get many dreams about monks walking through chaotic worlds with buildings that
are really flying cheeseburgers filled with fire breathing dragons.

I also dream about rats with bass drums made out of clay.

Those aside… I find that my dreams reflect my stress levels, and what I know to be true.
It is difficult to wade through all of the insecurities manifested in sad, messed up dreams to find
my fears that need to be sorted out.. and bits of wisdom, but

I somehow manage to, and it is definitely worth it.

day by day, I feel the stress melting off of me.. and while i still have to shake off
bits of it that has clung to my shoe or hem of my jeans..it is nothing compared to
what I was feeling weeks ago.

and with that.. I shall go back to my Google Reader. <3

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America feels better lately.

It must be the injection of hope due to Obama being elected.  
It was nice to feel people a bit more united than usual.  

To the New Year 

 

<3 Amen!

<3 Amen!

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I started school yesterday, and its safe to say that the general excitement has 
not worn off.  I love web design with all of my geeked-out heart.  I will not
be someone who hates their job in 20 years..or 30 years.  I think I could do this…

Forever.  

New years resolution:

1. To be the best damn designer ever, and get sweet grades.
2. Not get offended by things.. oh my fragile heart and sponge eyes!(thats an odd visual, eh?) 
3. Eat healthier
4. Get rid of more “stuff”

 

So there you go.. there’s my mini list.  I suppose its good to start small. I figure I can accomplish
all of those things, then i’ll move onto the marathon and the body building.. and the climbing Everest.

I’ve been trying to decide what to do after school.
Generally, I don’t think *too* far in advance.  I enjoy my life in the present,
and do not like to worry about the future.  

However, it is very clear to me that I’ll have to make the decision eventually.. and
unlike most of those far off decisions.. the circumstances in this one are unlikely
to change.

 
Its simple really: Minnesota or Vancouver

The major events in my life.. the things and people that shaped my character most drastically
have happened in Vancouver..
and my family..and Andrew are in Minnesota.  

I suppose, we all need to have things that we can give up, 
and things that we cannot give up.  

What are those things for me? 
What do I want for .. my future life?

What do I value? 

I’ve been avoiding thinking about it for obvious reasons: it hurts.  

Nevertheless, 

To quote Relient K :)  

“The end will justify the pain it took to get us there.”

 

In other news, the snow is taking Vancouver by storm, and left us squirming. its quite amusing. 

Talk to you later.

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Sleep is a waste of time

hello little leaf
hello little leaf

The floor of my room is covered in clothes.
I know you are not surprised. I don’t mind though.
It is late, and I’m heading to bed soon..which is a shame

because I am feeling rather productive this evening.

I love taking my time..
I play little games with myself.. searching for
open spots of floor between the clothes so
that I can hop out to the bathroom.

I squeeze my hands together tightly to form a cup..
I then try and fill it up ALL the way so the water runs over.
When i succeed, I drink half and splash the rest on my face.

I love reading at night by the warmth of my lamp.
I often imagine its a candle or an oil lamp, and that
i’m living in a cabin someone far in the wilderness.

I stretch my legs out and stare at pennies..I open drawers,
boxes, gaze at dried roses and peculiar nuts.
I run my fingers along wood, cotton, silk, plaster,
and cool metal.

Why sleep when I could draw.. dance.. listen to music,
write letters, journal, or just.. wonder about the universe for a while..

8 days until I see Minnesota=seeing my family, friends, and Andrew!=awesome.

I miss him something fierce. He is so good to me.

Oh life, you staggering force :)

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A Poem

I read this poem on my brother Joel’s blog.  I am pretty sure he wrote it. If not, he’ll correct me.
I loved it, and wanted to spread it around.

In the night
I am alone.

I sweat through the days
so I can sit here,
like this,
finding you.

And to end. a photo from a night at the Capitol with two wonderful people that look strangely like ghosts.

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